(1) It takes time to heal.
I've been pretty much ravaged the previous semester. I was reading my posts and I was shocked on the intensity of my words. I was indeed a hopeless romantic. But here's the thing, I look at myself now and I am okay. I may not have full recovered but at least, I'm emotionally better. Time has actually weathered the storm. The pain, hurt, and sorrow... are slowly slipping away. For months, all of it has been with me, mainly because I didn't want to let go of it. I wanted to be in pain. It was my choice. I eventually got tired and decided that maybe I deserved better than that. Maybe I should help myself. Maybe I had enough. Maybe already had too much. To tell you honestly, I don't know when I stopped hurting. I just woke up one day feeling nothing at all. It was a state of oblivion, a state where there's no space for me to feel anything. Believe me, during those times when I was distraught, it was like passing through a sinuous road that has no end. The truth is will have no end, only if you've set your mind to that. So don't be hard on yourself. Sometimes, the only person standing in your way is you (I got this from the Black Swan)
(2) You'll never know how bad another person really feels.
It is true. No matter how hard you try to be emphatic, you'll never have the same intensity of hurt of another person. You can only try to understand or feel. I'm not trying to insinuate that listening to your friend's problems or catastrophic experiences is useless. What I'm saying is that if you already feel bad listening to their stories, how much more if you were in your friend's position? Giving time to listen to someone who badly needs it is priceless. If it weren't for the patience of my friends bearing with me and tolerating me, I would have turned myself into a complete train wreck. I've been pretty hardheaded and didn't listen to their advice and yes, I regret it a lot. Everybody needs someone. When the burden weighs on you, it wouldn't hurt to seek for help.
(3) God has a plan
Nobody knows what God is planning but one thing is for sure: there is a reason for every struggle. It makes you stronger, it teaches you how to fight and how to be better. Try to take a moment to vent to him all that you feel. Tell him how much you hate you hate what's going on, just let your emotions flow. It will make you feel better. This may sound cliche, but God is always there. He provides, and in times of need, his presence will surely be felt.
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Last note:
Let go of the bitterness. Let go of the sadness. Allow yourself to be happy. Never regret that you loved someone even if it caused you so much pain because it is what makes you human.
